Two

Day Two:  Love is Blindness I don't wanna see

I've decided not to do the video log, Jude was right it would be too much.  For now I'm going to stick with poetry and yoga and recipes and everything else about this project that I actually love and am looking forward to.  I wrote  a poem I actually liked for yesterday, I thought I'd share:

Is it alright to devise?
My plans seem to fall out
my back pocket,
always two steps too fast
to hold on.
So alas, I devise again.

I'm writing a lot earlier than I normally would since I will be busy later on today, but today is my Mom's birthday so I thought I'd wish her a Happy Birthday, we are going out for lunch together (and my siblings) in a little while.  I love nice days, days that aren't necessarilly too busy but enough that I have to put on real-people clothes.  Those are nice days.

So after lunch I think I might finish Braveheart.  I started it last night (after watching three other movies, it's like a solo-movie-marathon) and then watch Argo.  I keep seeing everywhere that it was fabulous, and this new-fangled thing called internet streaming allows me to not pay to see movies, which is nice because despite popular beief I do NOT see movies better in the theatre on a big screen it is actualy quite he opposite.  I should get a discount, or it shouldn't illegal for me or something, I don't know.

I am really looking forward o the Great Gatsby, but heard yesterday that Jay-Z is composing the score and it sort of disappointed me.  Not sot of actually, it really really disappointed me.  I was looking forward to an interesting, traditional piece, but I do have a soft spot for Jay-Z, maybe he'll surprise me and make it fabulous!  Even when teh Jay-Z/Jack White trailer came outI loved the music but it sort of didn't click wit me, I love that book.  That book translates so many feelings that I can't contemplate into words that make sense to me.  I just hope it isn't that bad, no moredisappointment please!

What else can I say?  I think I am in a good mental space at the moment, despite all kinds of "lovely" news lately, and minimal ye roubles (that are still unresolved if anyone is wondering) I thnk that being away for four months prepared me for some serious independence.  I thought it would take some gtting used to, but I genuinely enjoy my own company.  I do miss my friends though, I'm going to a friend's house for the evening and I cannot wait.  I love being around people, I can't hide it.  It's good for people, to be around other pople....  I believe in...people.

I think I'm going to start planning a trip.  It seems that when I have something to look forward to I am more apt to stay focused and generally positive.  I suggest this to all:  posiivity.  It's a challege sometimes, but it's a damn good perspective to have. 

In fear of speaking too much cheese, I just want everyone to chill out and smile today.  I think I might, with a glass of champagne or two (mimosa's, if you're interested, are the best thing in the world). 

x
Jess