Three

Day Three:  Philanthropy, to love human kind.

I think there's something very important to be said about people who make time and put in effort for other people.  Just thoughtful-ness, considering what someone else is feeling, why is that so unimportant to so many people?  Or if it is important to people, why refrain from showing it?  Life is so short, friends are fragile, and in order to keep and be a friend a fraction of thought is needed.  I'm all kinds of crazy opinionated about these things, because I care about things I suppose.  I just think that if someone is important in my life I will make sure they know they are, instead of being cryptic of mysterious. I  don't think anyone goes very far with much mystery, but how far am I really?  Who am I to say anything?

I think I want to grow up o be a Philanthropist.  Just someone who is gunnin' for thehuman race, spreads peace, and generally just wants everyone to be happy.  I am still on this journey to figure out what I actually want with a career in life, what I want to spend my days ding.  I want to work for people.

I don't ponder much on definitions of words or etymology, but I suddenly wonder what the direct definiion of "cosy" actually is, if there is a tangible definition or if it is along the lines of "hope" or "strength," things that although everyone hasa personal conception of the words there is no way to perfecly describe such feelings.  I love how peculiar and philosophical anything can become after a few moments of thought...  Look at me going again, off tinking.  I love thinking.

I am moving back to school tomorrow, and to be honest I am nervous about it.  I am excited to see everyone again, and to start a new routine and chapter, but it is a little scary going to a new house with ne people and starting completely fresh.  This is all so new to me, I love t but it is so new and different, I don't usually react to a lot of change well, and here I am changing so much about what I know and love...

I guess my goal for tomorrow is to focus on the present and o enjoy the day.  I gt to move into my own place, and be independent and smile and have my own schdule again.  Tht is a nice thing about being at school:  I am on my own time.  I think the word refreshing is the ost fitting, gosh, words are just great.

I would just like to point out that I love my friends and my family, incase that wan't evident before, and that bing home has been fanastic and hard and fantastic again and that I am eternally grateful for everyoe who spends time listening to me or with me.  You are are fabulous, I am so lucky.  I've said that so much lately but I am.  I am so effing lucky.

Alright, off to watch some Nurse Jackie and pretend I'm not moving tomorrow.

Take care,

x
Jess