Eight

Day Eight:  Just a few notes of Confidence needed

As classes actually begin, I have this looming feeling that I should probably start thinking I can do well in them.  My acting class in particular worries me, because I have a hard time reading things off a piece of paper quickly or without stumbling on words, and I am going to try but it is humiliating...  I know I can do it, I just really need to get behind myself.  This is all kinds of silly right now, but I just need it to go well, I need to do this for myself.  I wanted a challenge, and by golly this one is tremendous.

Confidence is silly that way though, because you don't always feel confident or like you can do anything, that invincible feeling comes and goes, but it takes some precise training to be confident in most of what you do.  I try, or atleast to remind myself that Hey, Yeah, I can do this, Don't worry so much.  For me it has to be something with balance, I need to balance my confidence over all aspects including classes, socially, all kinds of things.  I struggle with lots of things like that, I worry about them and don't let myself enjoy learning because I find myself worrying that I will not do well.  I am attempting with this acting class to just let myself get involved, to let myself go a bit, I'm not sure how that will work out.

aI gots the faith that everything will work out, especially with that three hour practical course tomorrow, it will work out, I'll have a coffee after and feel a lot better about it.  I like coffee now, it's an epidemic.  I hope classes have begun smoothly for everyone, and I hope that despite all the odds, including your own battles and struggles, you know that you can do this, I gots the faith for you.  I may still be trying to believe in myself all the time, but one thing is for sure:  I believe in people enough to believe in you.  Just so you know, I'll remind you again so you don't forget later.

Hugs,
x
Jess