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Day Two Hundred and Forty-Three:     Is Enrique Back?

I couldn’t stay in bed this morning so I got up and watched some youtube video’s and wrote this.  I tossed and turned for a half hour before realising it makes more sense to get up and be productive than to stay in bed and be uncomfortable.  It isn’t even that hot in here anymore, I just couldn’t keep still.

I’ve been having issues with productivity all summer which I have mentioned here briefly, but it is almost worse right now.  Let me explain.  I look at a day like today, Saturday, where I have little plans at all, and think to myself “hm, I should be doing something today so I don’t feel like a lazy bum.” Which is really great if there are things to be done, but at this point I can only do so much pre-term preparation.  So I have a few options of how to fill my time when there isn’t much to do but must feel productive:

1)      Work out.  I do this basically as a filler thing, just pull out one of my yoga mats and do my practise or a blogilates short or something, or I (now being near campus) head to the gym and spend my time there.  I’ll specifically walk downtown just to walk back up, or my new thing is to plan out healthy meals or workouts for the week.  This is great, it’s healthy it’s fun for me (sometimes) and helps when I’m like this right now and have a ton of energy at nine am, but sometimes (for example if it is super hot in my room outside or late in the evening) it is just not okay to be doing this excessively.

2)      Write schedules.  I will write a list of the schedules I need to write for the next week, day, few hours, to break down how to do my workouts, when I should choose my outfits for the next day, when I should check the WEATHER, and this is the step into madness that is my need to be somewhat productive.  Making a list has always calmed my nerves when it comes to feeling like I’m not being productive, and I don’t want people to think I don’t sit on tumblr or Netflix anymore because I sure do, but there are these times where I have the most detailed lists because gosh darnit I am going to get something done today!

3)      Re-Organise.  It sounds helpful, but when I organise and then re-organise over and over I find myself losing things.  Yesterday I lost my water bottle because it wasn’t on my desk or beside my bed but inside my cctv cabinet for “safekeeping.”  This step bothers me because now it’s just something I do to nitpick and feel like I’m getting ready for school.  I re-organise my books on a shelf, or my workout clothes in the drawer,.   It’s not really frustrating while it’s happening, but finding something later on is and I don’t really know how to stop myself.  Must. Be. Productive

4)      I think the worst thing that I do when trying to be productive is go over the things (in a list, out loud, in my head, etc.) that I have yet to do but can’t until later.  Like today I legitimately just went “Alright I have to make a councelling appointment but the CSD isn’t open on the weekends so on Tuesday I’ll get to that, and I need to make an appointment with a different courseworker and that can’t be done until Tuesday either, so I will sit here and I will THINK ABOUT IT and torture myself about how I need to do it but can’t.”  This happens with lots of things.  That audition I have Thursday would be great if it were done like right now, that bill payment would be great to be made whenever it shows up on my online banking.  I let the things I can’t control bother me the most, whch really needs to stop.

Those are just some of the things that I do when trying to be productive when nothing else is to be done.  I’ve already gotten ready for school, I’ve already seen almost everyone who’s moved in already in Guelph of my friends, I’ve contacted professors and worked on my event stuff there isn’t anything else I can do but work out lay in bed and dwell on things I can’t control.  My advice to myself?  Take a chill pill, ths is the slow, low key time of the term, why not take advantage of that?

With a MAD MEN MARATHON LATER.

Treat yo’self friends, because we all know that this is that there time to do that.  Before we all get too swamped in being productive to remember this post even existed.

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