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Day Two Hundred and Nineteen:   Greek

Jf I get behind any longer I will blow a gasket.  I always feel so bad when I don’t get a post in on time, and then I sit here and complain about it, but usually it’s just because I am too tired to write something relatively substantial to post on the internet, and so it is pushed to the next day.  Oh procrastination, I am working my best to avoid you, but it seems as you have found me regardless.

I dislike it when people tell me how to do something or judge me.  Criticism I can handle because it is helping me improve, but what are you trying to do when you judge someone?  Make them feel bad?  Like, come on man, let’s be real here, this is just a preteen way of telling someone you are jealous, so why not pull up your panties and just say “Dude you’re great I wish I was like you way to go!”  But well, that’s not life.

Judgement is inescapeable, but caring about that judgement is a totally different ball game.  I would love to say that I don’t internalise judgement but I do.  It’s really hard not to care about what other people think.  But what is important to me is that I am okay with the person I am and living with that is my deal, not anyone else’s.  Oh life, how beautiful and wicked you are.

I am so tired if that’s not obvious.

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