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Day Two Hundred and Twenty Seven:  Sunsets

I am writing from the porch of my cottage at the beach and I am incredibly relaxed.  We arrived yesterday (that was the subtle reveal that I am a day late on writing this…) and we had dinner, to the sunset, and then to the pool to relax and come back to a quiet perfect temperature for sleeping trailer.  I woke up this morning at nine thirty am, the latest I’ve slept in all summer probably, and I am just happy to be here.

Last night at the sunset I had some realisations:

1)      My whole life I have gone to sunsets with my family and wish that I was with someone, a loving partner perhaps, or a best friend, but someone who loved me outside of my family to enjo it with me.  I have always thought this, always every single time, and this summer was the first time that I have thought to myself “I saw this sunset over the Thames, alone, over the River Sein with AJ, in Rome at the Colloseum, with good friends, in Ireland over the city of Dublin, alone.  This has been the first year that I’ve watched the sun set on Lake Huron with my parents and I took a deep breath and almost cried.  I am watching the sun set closest to home, and I am so in love with them and life right now.  Who cares that there isn’t someone holding my hand?  I’ve got that covered for now, and I’m really okay with that.

2)      Paul once told me that with his colourblindness sunsets looked purple and green and beautiful, and looking at sunsets and other things that are wonders and indescribeable was always something he enjoyed.  He told me about sunsets in Peru that he saw, and although I’m worried about going to Peru and affording it, etc. next year I really hope I can go.  I’ve been losing too many good people in my life lately (the past five months have brought on more heartbreak in my family’s circle than I can explain) and even this morning news came of solemn nature, and I really wish that I had said different things and taken different time with the people who meant the most in my life.  I do not want to take any moment for granted from this moment forth.

3)      Standing in the mud in sanuks it kind of gross.

I am thoroughly enjoying my vacation so far even though my cellphone has been frustrating me to no end but really, is that important?  I got to watch amovie last night listening to the wind in the tree’s after a nice swim with my dad, and today we are off to the Falls to get up to shenanigans and other fun things that you normally do on a Friday in August.

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