Sixty-Eight

Day Sixty-Eight:  Business Time

It’s been a long time since I’ve been nervous with the butterflies in my stomach to see someone.  It has actually been longer than  before this semester that I have genuinely been excited to be around someone new or atleast an interest.  I’m not so much disappointed as I miss that feeling.  That exciting, interesting, mysterious feeling that this person who you’re anxious for is exciting and new.  It has been a very, very long time since I’ve been able to honestly say  that I’ve been on a proper date, been out with a boy, and had a good enough time to get to that point of nervousness.

I miss the excitement is all.

Lately it’s just been class-workout-homework-sleep, sometimes a short visit with a friend here or there, but for the most part nothing new and exciting has emerged from this semester.  Maybe briefly, a small hint a few weeks ago, but the people around me crushed that thought the moment it hit the ground, and so I am looking towards the summer to provide something different and fabulous.  Is that too much to ask?

Today was a good day to say the least.  Very new things happened, a lovely meeting of a group of people who all have the same thing on their minds:  conversation.  It was just so interesting to click with so many people at once.  My people.  I can’t wait for next month and to see them all again, maybe in the summer this could become a bi-weekly thing, it’s all in the planning right now.

I think I’m going to turn in though, I’m thinking of doing a themed week this week for blogs but I’m not sure.  Mix it up a bit from saying “I’ve spent today stressed, tired, worn out and completely off my rocker,” and maybe pointing it into a more uplifting light. I think I have an idea or two, aren’t they just the greatest?  It’s always a good day when a new idea excites you.

There’s that word again:   excitement.  It’s all I crave in my life, to not be boring.

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