Day
Eighty-Eight: It’s Time.
As my plans
shape up for next year and what I am taking and where I am living becomes
concrete my mind gets stuck on actually becoming a real person. I will be leaving the school system for the
first time in what, fifteen years? All I’ve
ever known is school, and I think that I will be ready to take on some different
responsibilities and some new and challenging ones that will be hard but I just
am ready for that now. I am ready to
work, and to create, and be myself outside of an academic setting. I am planning on moving out, and buying real
furniture and having real roommates that will share responsibilities. I have
all of these plans, and planning them just makes it easier to get through the
rest of this term.
I have an
end goal now. It’s a year away,
literally, and all I have to do is maintain my marks and sanity and bam! It will be here.
All of this
is coming to a head at the moment for me because I am not feeling too great
about the things that are around me especially coming up to summer. I don’t have a concrete plan for a job yet
although I have an idea, I’m frustrated about paying for a house in Guelph and
yet living in Waterloo again but I like living there. I just wish things were a little smoother I
guess, instead of me living in so many different spots, I have no real
consistent common-ground, but just a vagabond from place to place.
Which
brings me to what I really want to do for the summer: get back to London. I’ve asked a few and they’ve promised to try,
but I’d really like to just go. I’ve budgeted
it, and it’s worth it to me even just for a week at this point. I just want to be back in the city that I
fell for. When looking at graduate
schools becomes a reality (aka this summer) and looking at what I really want
to do with my life and where I would want to live I am going to have to make
decisions. I don’t know if I’m ready for
those decisions yet, but I am going to try to tackle them. I’ve got my
metaphorical work gloves for life on, handle with care.
I hope
everyone has a Good Friday (ba ha ha) and that this weekend is bright and merry
for everyone, as Easter should be.
x
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