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Day Two Hundred and Seven:  When Have You Arrived?

  I think we all focus too much.  That seems kind of silly, but just be.  I have this thing for people, and being around them, and I do love people but sometimes it’s nice to just be.  Take the load off, stop overplanning stop focusing on everything and take a minute and breathe.  Money isn’t everything.  It’s a lot, but it really isn’t everything.  The things these eyes have seen make up for the fact that whenever I get more than a certain amount in my bank account I want to put a downpayment on a trip.  I love the fact that things end, and I love thinking that I was once in love for a brief period of four days and it was intense and beautiful and now it’s ended and now it’s ended.    These eyes have seen more than something you’ve thought of, and I can’t see many faces or things in the first place.  Money isn’t everything but we need it, right?  And casting your vote for a corporation isn’t so bad when it’s beautiful, right?  What about options?  I like having options, but if I have too many places to apply shouldn’t maybe make a choice or two beforehand?  I like choosing when it’s good things, but I make bad decisions sometimes too, and sometimes I’m bossy and sometimes I have high expectations but I think everyone around me thinks that way too.  Oh don’t be serious every moment and dance in the rain sometimes.  Once I was in love for four months and it was intense and beautiful and then it ended.  And then it ended.

I think more things in life should be as brief as soulmates.

Is it obvious that I go back and forth on some things and other times I am so set on my opinions?  I focus on a lot of positive things on here because I think it is important to keep thinking forward, moving, always move forward, because there are always endings, they are inevitable, even if you’re a self starter who knits half a scarf and gives up there’s still an end somewhere, but the thing about it is is to anticipate it to the point where you enjoy the breathing that happens daily, or the smiles that you may or may not see, or the times where you’re singing in a car as loud as you can off key and that’s okay because it’s pat benetar and everyone knows that that’s okay, right?  It doesn’t matter, because it will all end, right?  Don’t focus, let it all be, and thinking about other things is good too.  Read the newspaper, think about someone other than yourself, buy a coffee for a friend, smile, hug lots hug everyone jesus don’t care about those social things just hug.  What is the big deal?

What is the big deal?  Life is serious, but life is beautiful.

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