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Day One Hundred and Ninety-Three:  On Top of the World

I wrote about growing up the other day and the thing about growing up for me that nags at my thoughts is that I need to decide.  Why do we have to?  Why do we have to choose the rest of our lives?  What does that even mean?

Can’t I just be happy, and carry on?  Can’t I just take what comes at me, shoot for my dreams and live comfortably knowing that I am in fact living my dreams?  My dreams aren’t that far-fetched or unrealistic at this point, it’s incredible to me that I could achieve some of them, and in my opinion too many people settle.

So thinking of what to do, where to live, and what I want is getting to be a regular thing.  I  constantly think that Europe is the place for me, and then again I want to take a few months off and travel Canada for a bit.  What about Buton where did my Buton dream go?  Something about seeing the world just gets my engine going.

I think what gets me the most about making decisions like this is that I have such support in my life.  My parents encourage me to follow every dream, to go to school and to travel and to take chances, and that supports me beyond belief when it comes to making those kind of decisions.  My friends provide insight and love and stress-relief, but also know that they can talk to me.  I have councellors and advisors who not only listen to all of this repeatedly, but give input and resources.  My coworkers and die-hard listener this week boss Jen listen to my idea’s, my rambling for hours, and yet still have time to pat me on the head in support.  The support system I have is impeccable, I am eternally grateful.

So what?  What now?  I write these, I read things, I work I become educated, I meet people and see and experience new things, and then…?  Live?  Live.  Live live live.  I say this every week it seems, but life, my friends, is so fleeting.  It slips away from us, and the reality is is that we don’t have all of the time in the world to do what we want.  If you want to be with someone, jump off the bridge, take that risk, it will be worth the experience.  If you want to take a year off, do it, travel  expand, grow. It’s worth it, if you find it worthy it is.  It makes a difference to you.

I hope everyone is having a lovely evening, I sure had a fantastic day, week, month, everything just seems to be pulling together so nicely. 

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