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Day One Hundred and Ninety-Six:  I Feel Like Dancing

Huh, there’s a lot of things I feel like.  I feel like sleeping for two days, I feel like drinking ice cold water until I drown, I feel like driving in my boyfriend’s car instead of working out tonight, and I feel like smiling.  I may get a short fuse sometimes, I may feel tired or irritated or overwhelmed, but I have to wrap my head around the fact that I feel a lot of things at once.  Right now I feel like dancing and I feel overwhelmed, it’s very interesting that you can feel two very different things.

I spent time with my siblings today and I felt that since we don’t get a lot of time together it was nice to wander around the mall and sit together and spend time laughing and making jokes.  We don’t as a family get too many moments together, and the three of us especially don’t get time for all of us.  It was nice to know they were smiling beside me, they mean so much to me and although I’ve been all over the place the past few years I always know that they are the home that I come home to.  The arms that I come in to, and I wouldn’t change that for anything right now.

It’s nice to have a place to come home to when you feel so many things at once.  When I feel like watching ridiculous tv shows or watch movies upon movies in a row they are there, but when I feel like sleeping on the couch they will leave me alone and then wake me for dinner.  They are excited when I feel excited, and they smile and dance when I feel like it too.  It’s one of those great feelings to know that us three are going to be us three for our lives.  Destiny, it seems, has put us together.

Love you guys, thanks for dealing with me whatever I feel.  For now, I feel like sleeping.

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