July 14, 2013

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Day One Hundred and Ninety-Four:  Short Term

The heat has been neauseating today and yesterday to the point where we have the air conditioning turned up so high that a sweater is necessary.  I will not complain, because in the grand scheme of things temperature and weather are mostly day-to-day and remembering if a day was beautiful or not only matters on your wedding day and if you’re going to the beach.  If you’re sitting in an office it doesn’t matter too much, but bringing eight blind kids to an outdoor pool?  It’d be great if it didn’t rain.

Camp has been lovely, and although I only attended the first two days I will be there all of this week, as well as writing some work-related things and maintaining sanity somewhere in there.  Work has never really been “work” for me before at the CNIB because of all of the amazing people I work with, and the positive energy that exudes from our office.  I am so lucky to be working in such a community that people support eachother whole-heartedly.

Thinking of work prospects is daunting lately, work is one of those things that I believe you should enjoy and feel needed and feel that it is worth it.  I want to enjoy what I do and feel like I am contributing and productive.  I think that’s why I love working with organisations that work towards helping people, and working on projects and programs that support people.

As for right now I am not sure if I can handle working through my school term, because as it stands working while doing a semester of university coursework is not only a headache but recipe for something worse than disaster:  unbelievable stress.  I am having a hard time with only two classes, not to mention five.  But I will be volunteering and working on different projects, as well as finishing my degree’s.

If anything I just want to feel productive.  That is key for me, because otherwise I feel like I am useless.  If I don’t feel needed or worth than my motivation runs away.  Oh motivation, that fox, always escaping.  But really, it sems like the more I think about work and school and the future the more doors and opportunities become available, which is pretty neat to me.

So no more stressing about the future, life is too fleeting to really focus on that much, to wory about that much, and not to smile along the way.  Happy Sunday, everyone.


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