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Day Two Hundred and Nine:  Dancing With Myself,

Some days I worry that Billy Idol is my spirit animal.  I also am pretty sure that I am in desperate need of blowing off some steam.  Like a walk, or a run, or going dancing or just something because right now I’ve got too much pent up inside of me.  Wouldn’t it be great if instead of nap time (or in conjunction with) a dance break was offered?  I feel like me skanking down the hallways of MACK might get some awkward looks…  At this point I’m convinced I wouldn’t care.

At home I have a room big enough that if I need to just dance it out for a half hour or something I can do that, but here I have a tiny creaky room, and I don’t think my housemates would appreciate my eighties glam rock at ten thirty in the morning.  I think I’m going to have to grab a walk to campus early and get the volume up.  It might not be great for my hearing but who needs all five senses anyway?  I’m already down one might as well shoot them all down.

I also want a milkshake.

This has now become a post in order for me to figure out what it is I really do want/need at this moment.  I just finished writing an assignment for my Canadian theatre course, which I had been putting off so that’s nice to be almost finished, and heading off to class soon, and then a busy day of meetings and then rehearsal.  I woke up so tired this morning, I think I really do need that time to blow off some steam and recharge energy-wise. 

My ENERGY comes from a bunch of things.  Protein, mostly, but also from my mental state that day.  If I wake up (like today) still tired, I know that I need more time to relax, even if it’s just lay in bed with my eyes closed listening to episodes of Sex and the City, but with rehearsal and readings that doesn’t come luxuriously.  So where else can I grab energy?  Milkshakes?  Other people?  Anyone want to share their energy?  I think mine comes from other people, but also music.  If I’m listening to the right music for my mood I am more likely to get work done (like an hour ago when I started that assignment listening to a chill autumn 8tracks, it’s done now!) and now I’ve moved onto an eighties mix because that’s what I need.  Life right now is all about judging what I need right now.  How selfish.

But it is necessary.

I am starting to really understand that taking care of yourself isn’t selfish, it’s protecting yourself from getting sick and hurt and all kinds of other things.  So what’s my advice for today do you think?  Take care of yourselves, eat properly, sleep enough, take breaks don’t push yourself and just trust that you know what’s best.  And if you need to talk to someone about it.  I have that problem sometimes, where I’m dealing with some stuff and keep it inside for too long (ie. Last night where I almost burst into tears halfway through rehearsal…) but it’s important!  All these things are important I promise.

And as essay-writing season approaches (for the majority of BA) and show-month approaches (for us losers in the Theatre) I wish us all a very happy, healthy, and focused month of November.

Also,  HAPPY BONFIRE DAY!  It’s been a year since we found the most beautiful date spot in London, got kicked out of parliament because there was a “meeting” (aka people were taking up the rooms so no more shenanegans could happen) we found that really yummy tasting beer in that empty pub and walks the majority of the city’s Thames.  Fab night, fab friends, so thankful I had that opportunity.

Alright I’m done!

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