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Day Three Hundred and Seven:  Overwhelming Joy.

Sitting stage right during our second run in rehearsal today I glazed over after being very un-confident from the first run.  It hadn’t gone super well, and to be honest the second run didn’t go so hot for me either, I forgot a handful of crucial lines and was messed up with some blocking, and after four hours of being in the theatre today that glazed moment came with joy.  How bizarre, how strange, since I’ve spent a good chunk of my time here at Guelph in that theatre, and as I said in my talk about Paul, it’s no wonder that I am attracted to courses that tend to spend lots of time in the George Luscombe theatre, but today it hit me so hard I could hardly pay attention to the performance I was trying to perform in.

I love theatre.  I loved being there, in that moment, I was grinning I was so passionate about what I was going I just couldn’t not think about the bliss I was in at that moment.  I messed up my next scene and you know what?  I didn’t care because I was just so happy.  How strange, to be so happy that I messed up something and didn’t care.  To be so in the moment that I missed it and…didn’t care.  Just writing about it makes me glaze over again, how amazing that feeling was, to feel so….to feel like I belong.  I’ve never felt so sure that I was meant to be somewhere than in the theatre.

And I’m sure I won’t be this happy there forever or even until the end of the week, but I just needed to take another moment to be in bliss in this feeling that makes me feel so great.  I needed it this weekend especially, but more importantly to get me back on track to what’s important.  What is it that I want to do in my life?  Be happy.  Infect others with happiness and support people.  Help, make a difference, and be creative and independent.  Inspire.  I want to inspire this feeling in other people, to encourage other people to spend their lives doing things that they believe will enhance life for everyone.

Life man, is brilliant.

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