November 4, 2013

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Day Three Hundred and Eight:  Thrills and Skillz

One thing about being an artist that always gets to me is the confidence that your work is good enough.  Is my work good enough?  Is my talent enough to carry me through?  Do I even want to be an artist and dependent on my talent and creativity?  I’ve been having numerous conversations with people lately about the nature of independent creativity and if it is enough.  Will my talent ever make up for my lack of confidence?  I just don’t have any of the answers.  Is it okay to rely on yourself?  Is that…okay?

I’ve been so concerned about the unknown future ahead of me, where and what am I going to be/doing this time next year?  I saw a quotation recently that really got to me:

You can’t swim across the ocean without losing sight of the shore.

I’ve recently just thrown my will to the wind.  I am not going to worry too much about the future because I know whatever it is is going to be awesome and exciting and an adventure, and I need this.  I need to lose myself in order to understand what it is I need to be doing.

It will become clear, right?

So as for my creativity, my muse, my inspirations, my writing I want to trust in it but have a hard time being confident in it.  Talent isn’t constant, as much as we convince ourselves that it is, but as long as you are passionate you will end up where you need to be.  What needs to happen in my own realm of creativity is a change of heart.  I need to nurture this creativity instead of second guessing it.  In talent we trust.


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