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Day Two Hundred and Ninety-Four:  Good Intentions,

I had this entire post typed into my notes on my blackberry and was all ready to talk about technology and the complexities of communities within social media, but I think I’m going to save that one for a little while.  I want to talk today about being okay with not knowing.

Trust me, it is difficult for me to even think that I am going to start being okay with this any time soon, but I am sincerely putting my best effort forward.

I am going to follow my dear Father’s advice and trust that if I enjoy what I’m doing and am passionate and focused on being the best person and contributor I can be that things will fall into place.  I have to believe that things will work out for me, and do my best, put my best me out there, and things will come.

Steve Jobs said that in his Graduation speech, he said that “you work a long time,” which is exactly what my Dad tells me every time we get into our “Future” chats.  He tells me I’m going to be working for the next forty years so I need to find something I enjoy doing so much that it is still satifysing forty years later.  I want to help people, and be creative and be physical and make a difference.  There is a program that I am completely enthralled with, but I have a feeling that I am going to find an alternative route to get to where I want to be.

The short story of all of this ramble is that I do not know what is going on in my life past April.  I hardly know which courses I’m taking for my final term of my undergrad let alone which Peru trip I’m taking let alone what jobs to even apply for this coming December.  I am sincerely determined to try, to search, to find, to do my best to identify what my next step is, but until it’s all figured out I promise to not worry about it.

And enjoy this beautiful autumn we’re having.

(That’s a joke, it’s pissing down rain and freezing out).

But I’m coming to realize that…what…what’s the point?  In worrying?  Money?  Welll, I’m going to find it.  I’m going to make this all happen I’m going to make my dreams happen, and so I pledge to, from this sentence onward, only be passionate, worry, and enjoy the present moment.  Think about it.  What if we all just thought “I’m typing right now, there’s a good song on I feel comfortable temperature man life is great.”  No looking forward to what time I’m getting up tomorrow or what I’m wearing.  This moment is about this post.

I hope I haven’t been complaining too much about the future lately, too.  It is taking over my life, but I have other, more interesting projects to talk about.  For example I have decided to create an ulterior way of recording one of my thesis projects for next term, which will be an up-and-coming wordpress as soon as I have the motivation to create it and design it.  I have become more motivated lately to start on my creative, out-of-coursework projects that will take a bit more time because it really is important to me.

But for now I hope that you are all well, and that these posts have been at least marginally interesting, if not just to see what’s going on with me.  Maybe you’re not confused about your future, but maybe it interests you to know that there are options, there is a journey waiting to be had infront of you and decided or not it’s fast approaching.

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