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Day One Hundred Thirty-Six:  Don’t Bring Me Down

It’s days like these that I’m not sure what to write about.  My brother asked me last night If my blog was just a log of my day, and it isn’t usually because there aren’t that many things to report on a daily basis.  I write about things that come up, thoughts, stories that happen or I’ve been thinking of.  I don’t know what to talk about today because I’ve not felt very well, and haven’t thought about much but sleep.  Something I’m trying to remind myself lately is that I need to give myself a break.  I had surgery a week ago, and I’m bothered by the fact that I can only partake in minimal activity…  I get frustrated because, well, because lots of reasons, but for now I think I’m just stuck with cabin fever.

I’ve only been outside for a little bit every day, but I get so tired.  I’ve tried yoga but it brought me down, and I am just trying to not let anything get me down.  It’s really hard, you know, to let yourself relax.  Just stay in bed or go for little walks, instead of on the go all of the time.  I remember exm time when I wished for more relaxing time, but in reality it’s hard to accept.

So what do I want to say today?  Other than expressing my feelings of unrest and unforgiveness I think I should just be thankful that I have time to take it slow at all.  I know it’s been difficult for me to accept relaxation, accept being still for days on end, accept the headaches and the tugging and the issues, but it’s what I have to do to get by I guess, right?  And that’s all life is sometimes:  doing what we have to to get by.

Life, in all of its glory, tends to kick us in the ass on a weekly basis.

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