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Three Hundred and Fifty-Seven:   Wide Awake and Looking Ahead

This evening while on skype with my lovely Jude she asked if I wished it would just hurry up and be Peru time already, and I thought that I was, but after a minute I really just…I’m not.  I’m ready for tomorrow, Christmas Eve, and family time, and seeing my family’s faces when they open my gifts and having good meals together and spending time with close friends and having good glasses of wine and the exciting things to happen in the next week and a half, and getting back to campus and having my play on stage and taking the last four courses of my undergrad and going to parties and hugging my friends and smiling and enjoying these last four months.  I am looking forward to eevery day in the upcoming term because I know that things are about to change as they already are in my life right now.

Of course I am looking forward to Peru, but I think I want this term to pass like it did in London:  with just the right amount of speed.  A balance.  Not too fast in the aazing times and sped up a little in the hard ones.  The nights I can’t sleep I hope I will be able to get through them quickly and without hassle, and to the nights I am awake on purpose with my best friends drinking wine and watching Al Pacino |(HOO HA!) I hope those times are the perfect amount, staying up until our eyes are droopy and our heads rest on eachother’s shoulders.  The mornings spent at the breakfast place, in the library, at the gym, in the theatre, I want every moment to stay with me like it did in London because every moment is another one ticking by before I leave.

I tell everyone who will listen to me to not take anything for granted in their life, do not take any evening, any family dinner, any shift at work any conversation on the phone any silent moment alone any moment any thing in your life for granted because it flies away from you.  Every smile from a best friend or loved one, because they could be gone.  Any moment standing alone in the biggest city in the world watching the beautiful river beneath you slide away and your breath escape you in the setting sunlight and the silence of your own head but the bustle of the world around and just being in any moment, don’t take those things for granted.  Moments are a priveledge, someday you won’t be able to remember them, so appreciate them now.

Forgive, love, live life, and most of all let yourself be happy.  Smile, for the love of Pete just smile.

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