September 24, 2013

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Day Two Hundred and Sixty-Seven:  Being an Adult is Hard

In yoga before we start everything we set an intention for ourselves to accomplish, and usually I set one for the week.  For example I want to make time for myself, or be more focused.  In today’s class I set the intention that a month from now I will be as calm as I am now.  It’s been nearly a month into this term, only two full months of classes remain, which technically means I’m just about a third of the way done classes for this term.  And I am incredibly calm.  I’ve been taking everything day-by-day, and not psychng myself out, and going with the flow.  IT’s been helpful, if not therapeutic when it comes to dealing with the stress of coursework.  Yes, I become stressed about my workload from time-to-time, and sometimes my room becomes completely cluttered and I eat out more than usual and neglect seeing people, but those times are to be expected.  What’s getting to me right now is that I haven’t become overwhelmed quite yet, and although that is bound to change I hope that I will have the grace that I have in this moment to take it as it comes, and not get worried about it.

Growing up has brought responsibility and struggles and worries with the journey, my pack has been filled to the brim with things to think about, and yet I have lately been able to completely shut off my thoughts, or atleast relate them to a focused term.  In my case it’s been Dr. Who, and some other mundane tasks like showering and walking, just kind of “me” time completely.  I shut out the world and am in my own, just in my own.  It’s hard enough to explain how calm I am in comparison to previous terms where everything becomes too much.  Maybe once a play or two is due in playwrighting I will get more bogged down with coursework, but again, I do hope that I will compose myself and take time, you know?

In other news I desperately feel like knitting.  I cannot wait to start these projects I’ve got in mind, maybe after Halloween I’ll be able to speak about such Christmas-y projects, but for another month I’ll have to come up with more appropriate and relevant topics.  Such as today and how bizarre it is that I haven’t had a massive flip out yet.  Maybe this is just the calm before the storm…

Here’s hoping I’ve just grown out of those times and will remain calm and cool all term!


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