Forty Eight

Day Forty Eight:  Her.

She was determined, and strong, but doubtful and challenged herself everyday to do better.  She didn’t know what was quite right yet, or how to please people, or how to play the system to fly too far under the radar, but she was noticing things that were crucial in the learning process.  She was smart, smart enough to know what she wanted to do in the future and smart enough to get her act together and make good choices to lead towards those necessities in her life.  She confuses love with the need for a body, but she loves love, and loves everyone, and cares too much about the people around her, and is caring enough to let herself hurt for those people.  She is confident enough to stand up but not necessarily at the right times, but she is learning.  Right now she is willing to learn, and that is the important part.  She is quiet when it comes to her rights, she’ll learn to stand up for those too.  That’s just it about her, she’s learning, and I love her for it.  I don’t know what I would do without her, I tell her everything, and we fight and we are fine right after.  We are strong together, compassionate together, and make eachother stronger.  I am such a beter person because of this girl, and I’ve known her for her entire life  I remember the day she was born, and I was so excited to get to play with a new baby but all she did was cry and sleep.  For a while |I thought she was a doll, that just cried and slept, and then she began to crawl, and notice the cat and the colour of my eyes and the flowers in the garden.  She knew how to swim, and jump and swing on the swings.  I told her about Joseph and the Beatles and she told me about Barney, and the things that were important to her.  I will never forget the day that I taught her her first dance lesson, and there we were in our leotards in pigtails on the front yard, and her laugh.  Her laugh alone makes me want to laugh everyday, it makes me want to be a comedian just so I can hear it.  I love her to the ends of the universe, and I would do anything or her.  In the shower I write her wedding speech, and tell her how proud of her I am.  She is my sister, and she is one of the most amazing people in my life.  She’s not perfect, but she is so much more.

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