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Day One Hundred and Seventy-Five:  Existential Emphasis

It would be wonderful if I was finished with these summer courses and not just halfway through and swamped with midterms.  I’m hoping to finish two very large papers this week and another early next week in order to get the bulk of this semester out of the way.  Why is it that professors put the emphasis of the coursework and marks all in the same portion of the class?  Two essays in two weeks?  Sure!  Discussion marks out the ass?  Sure!  What, we don’t want a social life as well as a working and academic one, right?

Or let alone maybe a workout or the time for any proper sleep.  I wrote a while ago in my first blog about balance and how hard it is for anyone in this day and age to balance everything that they “should” be.  For example, we should be good to the environment but efficient and fast and on time, cost effective but also make a lot of money and go through years of university and college to get there, and while this goes on at the same time eat healthy (and afford it) but also binge drink and work out all of the time.  We have to donate to charity and have a large social group but also spend time reading the newspapers, novels, stay cultured see plays and volunteer.  Try to do this, balance it all, and maybe things will be okay.

The thing is is that we are told that those are the things that should be important and a lot of them are, but in the grand scheme of things I think it is up to each of us to show merit where merit is due.  I want to do well in these summer courses but by the end of this semester will the marks really matter/?  No, because I am learning a whole lot just reading and discussing online.

I think I’m lucky I have discovered the secret though, the secret that is to be grateful and value what I do have.

I don’t give myself enough credit, or enough breaks, and go on full steam ahead a ot of the time, and I am trying to work on that.  My word for this year was “nurture,” and I think I’ve been struggling with it a bit.  Hussey says to make a list and stick to it so by golly am I ever.

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