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Day One Hundred Fitty-Six:  Sunshine and Sephora Dreaming

I have this little urge to just head to Fairview, grab a cinnabon and make my way to sephora for an entire day.  I really want to try some new things, and some different things for the summer, but I just don’t have the time or money to go out there.  I don’t know why I have this new fascination for makeup, I hardly wear any of it at all really, only on nights when I leave the house after dark (and am seeing people, if I’m just going to Zoe’s to sleepover I wouldn’t bring even mascara) but it just makes me feel a little bit more…put together? I’m a grown up now, I should have more than three lipsticks, right?

IT also makes me feel like I can do something that the other girls can.  It’s like I’m in kindergarten again wondering why all the girls don’t have glasses like me, I’m stuck this way why not try to change it?  For what it’s worth I didn’t mind my glasses in kindergarten they were kind of huge and I had a teddy bear glasses case that I used to sit under this huge tree and read with them on, that was a good year for me I got a wedding proposal that year too, what a fine year kindergarten.

But in kindergarten I worried about looking different for different reasons.  They made fun of me to my face then, but now girls don’t really say much, it’s more of looking at them and wondering why my eyes don’t look like that, or how to properly put on lipstick.  Maybe makeup comes naturally to some girls like becoming a mother or fake tanning, and maybe it just doesn’t come naturally to me.  Sometimes I think this is a very good thing.

So I think I’ll head out there maybe in the next few weeks, it was nice to go in Toronto when it was one of the huge stores, and now I can go to the half-assed one and parouse so that I can stop complaining about it.  I need a bronze, and mayb new lipstick there’s never a time where I also don’t consider the princess or Alpheba packages of bush from the character sections….  Did I mention that the princess ones are awesome?  I wouldn’t even need them for Halloween I’d just walk around casually telling people “Nah it’s cool I’m being Cinderella today.” 

Badass. 

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